Archive for June, 2008

If you have not faith, it will fail.
If you do not give it time, the heailing will fail.
If you have not patience, she will leave.
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If you do not have faith in yourself, how can another have faith in you
If you do not give it time, how can you become whole
If you do not have patience, how will you really know.
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Repeat this daily, more than once. Make it a mantra. Believe it.
Do not ask:”what if it fails?”
     Think that, and it breaks the faith.
Just do it. Stick to it.
     You made the promises, You said you could do it. Prove it. To her. To yourself.

She has had enough faith to not say fuck it utterly – even now, even after all the pain. 
      She has that, don’t fail her.

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She’s worth it. So should I be when she turns around and looks.
Faith. Time. Patience.
My allies. My nemesis.
[Repeat as nessicary]

I could just refer to it as a midlife crisis, but that would be a bit disengenuous. It’s a time for a course correction. Overall it’d been building for a while – and things already going into motion. But then something else has come up to just throw everything into a tailspin that would be a thriller movie highlight of hurtling towards the ground while the pilot desperately tries to re-ignite the engines before exploding into the buildings below.

More details to follow, but for now, I’m just trying to keep the ball rolling to get through the weekend.

I think the reading I had done last weekend was genuine in it’s talking about forks in the road and choosing a path. But it hadn’t said anything about what happened if the