So I’ve made some first motions towards contact w/ my two half brothers. No, I’ve never met them before - I’d known about them for about a decade or a bit more by way of my paternal grandmother (both of them are by my biological father).

I’d seen one’s myspace for a while, but they hadn’t made many changes on it. This past weekend was the aforementioned grandmother’s 90th birthday and they’d all been together in the twin cities for it. I had Willits Faire to manage, but also I really don’t think that a first contact should have come at a large family gathering. There’s little sense in bringing in that kind of tension (if not outright drama) into a special event like someone else’s big birthday bash.

So I’ve traded a few emails with the older one, David (he’s about 20 I think), and then today I IM’ed briefly with Michael (18?) and we’re slated to chat more a bit later on. Still not sure how I feel about it all, I’m definitely curious, but beyond that, the other emotions are muddled at best.

I’ve always been an only child for all practical purposes (yes, when my mom remarried, I picked up a number of step-siblings, but they were all much older than I was, so they didn’t really play any material roles).

So now I get to mull about what to say, what to ask, and how I feel about meeting two 1/2 brothers. I spent a good deal of today’s therapy session talking about this very thing.

Will write more about this as the next few days progress.