If you have not faith, it will fail.
If you do not give it time, the heailing will fail.
If you have not patience, she will leave.
—
If you do not have faith in yourself, how can another have faith in you
If you do not give it time, how can you become whole
If you do not have patience, how will you really know.
–
Repeat this daily, more than once. Make it a mantra. Believe it.
Do not ask:”what if it fails?”
     Think that, and it breaks the faith.
Just do it. Stick to it.
     You made the promises, You said you could do it. Prove it. To her. To yourself.

She has had enough faith to not say fuck it utterly - even now, even after all the pain. 
      She has that, don’t fail her.

–
She’s worth it. So should I be when she turns around and looks.
Faith. Time. Patience.
My allies. My nemesis.
[Repeat as nessicary]

I could just refer to it as a midlife crisis, but that would be a bit disengenuous. It’s a time for a course correction. Overall it’d been building for a while - and things already going into motion. But then something else has come up to just throw everything into a tailspin that would be a thriller movie highlight of hurtling towards the ground while the pilot desperately tries to re-ignite the engines before exploding into the buildings below.

More details to follow, but for now, I’m just trying to keep the ball rolling to get through the weekend.

I think the reading I had done last weekend was genuine in it’s talking about forks in the road and choosing a path. But it hadn’t said anything about what happened if the

So it’s the Sunday of memorial day weekeend, otherwise known as less than a week to Valhalla Faire, 2008. I’ve completed the TV spots I was supposed to do this morning. Going to drop off the remaining posters and flyers that I have with me with Swallow, then hit Harvey’s to make sure the banner is going up today.

So far the weather is sunny and great today, though the forecast is still for rain on and off for the next few days. There’s no snow here at all (like there was the last two years) in the weeks before the faire. At the moment (and yesterday afternoon), it was only up on the very tops of the peaks as you come over the pass, but even that is pretty negligable.

Need to pick up a copy of the weekend paper to make sure that the program is set and looks correct, and will then head back down the hill.

I wish actually that I was at BayCon though, it seems the gang had a killer time, and it’d be nice to be at a few events like that which I don’t have to think about ‘biz’. Great photos so far by Dalisar, and now looking forward to seeing the rest of the sets by the other resident Photogs. Still hoping to make it out to visit this evening for a while, though I’ve no idea who might still be around by that point. All the main costume effort will have gone into last night’s events.

Anyone have any clever costume suggections for me for ‘09?

Pity they didn’t come to collect him 7 years ago when he lost the first time around…

From today’s Press-Democrat (Santa Rosa):

“Calling all Renaissance Faire frocked maidens and burly goblet
swillers. Your moment has arrived. The latest Adam Sandler movie,
‘Bedtime Stories,’ is shooting a 14th century Renaissance Faire scene or
two in Calistoga this summer. Casting calls are being held from 1 to 6
pm today and 10 am to 4 pm Saturday at the Calistoga Village Inn and
Spa, 1880 Lincoln Avenue, 942-0991. They’re looking for paid extras, 18
and over, able to spend a full week in mid-June when the production crew
relocates to Calistoga from Long Beach.”